Bleeding Tears

I know the pain of stifled cries
The heart gets broken
while the eyes cry
Do they reflect hidden fears
Or is it the hurt
...which flow as tears
Am I capable of the same
Do I suffocate - is that my terrain
Now I feel suffocated - say that again !

Family

It's been years for me of solitude.
Years of being alone- yet not so alone
Just the way they have embraced me
Every time they found me forlorn.
Their whiteness smilingly telling me
Of the hope that had not yet gone.
If only these walls could speak their heart -
Perhaps they would call me their own !

My son - my father

Son - a magical word

that always brings a smile

as it opens vaults of fond moments

which linger in my mind

Memories- only the happy kind

Keeps me warm through the winters

And makes the summers divine

Thoughts of you bring back the years

When you held my fingers

And we learnt to walk together

Of the dreams we shared on the terrace

with our secret talks

One moment you were my son

Next my bosom friend

Before I could bat an eyelid

Found you as my teacher

Guiding me through the paths of life

Help me cope with anger & strife

A son you remained for just a while

Then turned into a father

Charming with that naughty smile

May you remain so forever

I fly again

What junction of life this is
frozen like a window sill
not able to do anything but watch
As everything goes downhill

one moment I was on cloud nine
everything felt oh just so very fine
What I saw was a new beginning
My lonely life taking a new meaning

I tried to find new wings
Looked around to find some twigs
To build a nest- my very own
Where my heart once again could sing

Lurking in the shadows was a storm
To wipe away my dreams before
they took life's form
I wandered looking for the broken pieces

But no, I will not give up
I am not willing for more pain
I will not lead a life mundane
I look at the sky & smile
He responds with this rain

Once again I take control
And start the climb uphill
My life I am going to lead
My dreams I will not let anyone kill :-)

I want once again my story to begin
I want to dream again,
Live life to cover unknown terrains
Never to drown in despair once again
I want to swim to the distant shore
Or to roll in the sky azure
Winged with love, I will fly in the clouds
Don't give me a reason to refrain
Just know -I don't wish for any more pain
Cause all your efforts will go into vain
I am free & alive again

Desire

The desire
to be alive
keeps knocking
within me
Pushes me
to live a life
bereft of bondings –
free

It glares at me
each night
as I prepare to sleep
I pretend
to look the other way
While it sits
in my mind’s corner
and begins to weep

Filled with guilt
I cajole
again -
it speaks to me
Of the un-tread
paths of life
it wants me to take
Of journeys
that leaders took
which
we read in books

I pull my sheet &
whisper my wish
The wish to quietly
sleep
Knowing well
that deep within
It is now my turn
to weep
Weep for the dreams
which I lost
Because of sleepless nights
For being content
leading a life
of endless- struggle & strife

Undeterred -
it pulls back the sheet
and whispers
softly in my ear -
oh , why do you wish to weep
while there’s so much to do...

Weave new dreams
to make them true
Paint them all
in life’s
wondrous hues

Now
I don’t wish to sleep
wish to be life’s
best friend
Not read of journeys
or dream of them
But take the untrodden paths
Not content
just living life
But to dream &
be Alive !

We women are like teabags.
We don't know our true strength
until we are in hot water!

Seeing no other way
to make life better for ourselves ,
We try to change things,
It may make us alone & lonely,
but then we know…

Good things always come for a price ……
The shackles of slavery and oppression are hard to bear
But freedom leaves us to the world like an open wound
Unprotected ….prone to attacks…. to bleed to death

The former make us bear the onslaught of one on one,
But freedom pits us against all the evils of the world
Tired…….so many amongst us do surrender
Even moments before the battle could have been won….

But that’s not us….
We won't give up the fight
Even if we get tired…..we’ll continue with dignity…..
Think of the generations to follow
And make the world a better place for them……

HAPPY WOMEN’S DAY !