Mother's plea

Am escaping away
to a place new
But why can't I
pulling back are memories of You
Another tiring day unslept
Familiar are the moments left unwept
I would like to object
But I realize You have stolen my voice
Life is so confusing
Confused I am my head is reeling
unable to find the ground
I am afraid I'll soon be crashing
the world no longer attracts
Until now I thought I had it all clear
But this profound feeling has me all stressed
Have you seen my face, where hangs a tear
Killing me inside
Defeat is not easy for me to admit
I've always hid pain away
In this materialistic world I feel a misfit
I try to keep my sensibilities intact
But I find my mind falling apart
My breath comes unevenly
Trying to pull me back lest I die
I at the top of my lungs
But am unable to release my sorrow
My heart's sore beyond your belief
It believes there's no tomorrow
My sanity doesn't support
I am scared that I may indeed die
no one cares
So,do I say goodbye

Identity

What am I without my deeds- Just fiction ?
My identity - the summation of my deeds ?
My deeds - purpose or simple needs ?
My needs -Serendipity ?
Serendipity - I look for something, find it or something else?
My Control or lack of it - I flow with time, with flow of flow !
I flow - To grow ?
I grow - with solitude & self reflection ?
Self reflection - does itleads me to my identity ?

I am left wondering - what am I ?

Frozen Cry

A single moment or a never ending trail of silence

Does it make any difference to a lone existence

The chatter and cheer around

Makes no difference to the loneliness that abounds

The frozen coldness of my own presence

Overcomes the gaiety around

I wonder why this pain profound

Leaves unaffected the people around

I feel suffocated

As if my lungs perforated

I try to cry out

I can hear a feeble shout

Someone take me out of this Hades

To an Arcadia where love pervades

Will a solitary Utopian presence

Take my hand and lead me to the distant incandescence