Fears galore

To watch you getting smaller with the distance . . .

Is to know unbearable pain, it's jagged sharp edges tearing into my soul.

As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.
Fearing all the while that never may I again

fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid hairy chest.
Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart.
aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future;

that I with silken ribbons to yours, may never come to be true.
And the mornings ever so silent and hopeful,

of us longing for each other and so gently awaiting forever –

may become fragments of my broken dreams
your soft eyes betraying the storm within you.

I am crying for both of us, because you will not.
You know but won’t accept how painful it is to know

that I fear losing my place on your heart's earth...... My station....... My heart's home.

That I fear that I may wander, forever a nomad…….Alone and afraid.

And in my troubled dreams watch you leave, again and again.
For the rest of my days.

I forget the woman in me & get lost in you

So lost that you think of me as immature
It hurts - you not understanding that am not !
Not a child but a woman
secure in a man’s shadow

Your love perks up the child in me
How I try to take possession
and claim your attention
Sometimes you get upset
and are not concerned
Then again at times
you see I am hurting
and sweetly cajole me
Your love for the child woman
makes you rebel
You hate to admit
You give reasons against
It's you who is immature

Not ready to accept
That the man in you has surrendered
To the woman in me
You pretend to get in your angry mode
and plead to be left alone
Which I don’t allow you

But if I ever let you go
be sure of this –

You may walk lone a little distance

But surely will come back right back to me
It's just the Man in you !