I kicked deep within you
Feeling the tenderness of your touch
As you gently ran your hand
Assuring me of your protective presence
Since then you have been there
You being the silent kind ,your smile spoke instead
I took my first steps….the second, third…..
While you waited - to hold me
Before I stumbled or fell
Many a morning comfort you had to sacrifice
To kiss me awake & see off to school
Love is a warm feeling they say
True – your love taught me
The warmth of the freshly ironed school uniform
I found waiting on winter mornings
The juice glasses though cooling
There memory keeps me warm till this day
The sandwiches on the breakfast table
were oh, so warm !
The much hated glasses of milk
That heralded the evenings
Never failed to retain their warmth
I prayed to God each day -morning, evenings & night
“Oh lord almighty, make everything go right”
Now I know the prayers were not unfounded
Much before my prayers had started
He had heard them & sent you
Darkness scared me, so did shadows
But the fears went away as you became my shadow
Never leaving me alone, yet you let me grow
Sharing your experiences
While letting me learn & collect my own
Today a mother myself - I realize
All that you have been through
Once I look back & find
You standing with a smile just behind
A child I will remain to thee
& that is the way I want it to be
Eyes fixed on the ripple
as the stone lands
My impish mind smiles
On the power of my hand
A new high
takes me over
I pick up my dreams
My eyes to cover
Temptations rain
Ignorance I feign
I don’t want plenty
My kitty nor full neither empty
My mind reminds me
Of all my crying needs
I wait for a moment
Should I them heed
Needs will remain
However much I fulfill
Desires wait at the corner
Ready for the kill
I hear a voice within
Don’t let them lead you
It rises into a din
Awakening me anew
Leaving all dilemma behind
I move ahead with my decision
Hoping on my way to find
Life’s true reasons …..
Wonder why life fails to treat me like the rest
Still, I promise to give it my very best
knowing me as one not to give up or walk away
Why it asks me to pass a new test each day
How do I motivate myself for tomorrow
For that from where do some joy I borrow
I know I have to give my life a new meaning
Someone tell me how I escape the hurt feelings
Sure I have to give life to my dreams
But how do I cross the raging streams
The doubts within me I wave aside
Knowing that I am strong & capable of
swimming against the tide
With this simple knowledge, adversities I fight
At the end of each tunnel, there surely is light
So Lord, allow just this from you to borrow
A little motivation to keep me fighting till
I reach that new bright tomorrow !
