Journey

The craving for the feeling

Feeling of - till eternity

Feeling that engulfs

Desire intense to feel

Feel it pervade my soul

Hope of being granted

Peace eternal

Warmth bereft of hatred

A cold feeling makes me shiver

Shiver with fear

I long for the feeling

That love & caring brings

I try to hide my insecurities

But it creeps in

Peeps through the dark corners

I crane my neck & seek

The brightness of a new morn

The oh so beautiful warmth

I cross the boundary

Insecurities scream

Fear glares

I am unaware

The darkness is gone

Is this a dream

Everything pure

Is this the feeling of eternity

The end of mortality

The realization of a new life

Life beyond the Pains of life

No need for any fear

Now that I have reached here

A warm smile takes over

My frozen heart melts

Wishes

I may refuse the top of the world
Cause I wish for the simple warmth of a hearth
I don’t wish to have jewels ever,
Give me instead a hand to hold forever
Come what may – thunder or hail
Someone who will never- let me fail
I don’t wish for candle lit dinners
Just grant me lord -a kitchen of my own
Where even when I create the worst cuisine
That someone will say - it tastes divine
I don’t wish for treasure’s of the world
What I wish is simply more bold
I desire to have a world of mine
Where every moment will feel fine……..

A new beginning

Today I am learning to forgive myself
To love myself & others who hurt (me),

Now I love the new myself,
for that is what I am.

Mistakes.....

I made & learned from,
I still have my doubts and fears,
But don’t indulge in tears

You....

With you around,
I don’t need new friends,
for true friendship I have found
I know this will not end,..

Past...

Where I come from
does no more count,
Today am sure of
The past pains being gone,

The future.....

You will lead me to,
The future of joy profound.
Happiness is what I pursue ,
A feeling long overdue I have found,

I know.......
You’ll always try and keep your word,
Today I don’t wonder what it might be,
The promise of tomorrow tells me...

Tells me......

Sunsets will promise a new dawn,
Fears no more will shadow the morn,
The fears now cower & run away
Knowing that the new me is here to stay.

Mother's plea

Am escaping away
to a place new
But why can't I
pulling back are memories of You
Another tiring day unslept
Familiar are the moments left unwept
I would like to object
But I realize You have stolen my voice
Life is so confusing
Confused I am my head is reeling
unable to find the ground
I am afraid I'll soon be crashing
the world no longer attracts
Until now I thought I had it all clear
But this profound feeling has me all stressed
Have you seen my face, where hangs a tear
Killing me inside
Defeat is not easy for me to admit
I've always hid pain away
In this materialistic world I feel a misfit
I try to keep my sensibilities intact
But I find my mind falling apart
My breath comes unevenly
Trying to pull me back lest I die
I at the top of my lungs
But am unable to release my sorrow
My heart's sore beyond your belief
It believes there's no tomorrow
My sanity doesn't support
I am scared that I may indeed die
no one cares
So,do I say goodbye

Identity

What am I without my deeds- Just fiction ?
My identity - the summation of my deeds ?
My deeds - purpose or simple needs ?
My needs -Serendipity ?
Serendipity - I look for something, find it or something else?
My Control or lack of it - I flow with time, with flow of flow !
I flow - To grow ?
I grow - with solitude & self reflection ?
Self reflection - does itleads me to my identity ?

I am left wondering - what am I ?

Frozen Cry

A single moment or a never ending trail of silence

Does it make any difference to a lone existence

The chatter and cheer around

Makes no difference to the loneliness that abounds

The frozen coldness of my own presence

Overcomes the gaiety around

I wonder why this pain profound

Leaves unaffected the people around

I feel suffocated

As if my lungs perforated

I try to cry out

I can hear a feeble shout

Someone take me out of this Hades

To an Arcadia where love pervades

Will a solitary Utopian presence

Take my hand and lead me to the distant incandescence